I tried to write something witty today…and failed.
I tried to write something deep and meaningful…and failed.
I looked at the screen and felt crushed by my inability to put more than a handful of words together.
I want to say something, anything, but my words are failing me today. Perhaps its the muscle ache caused by my new workout rotation. Perhaps its burnout. Perhaps it is sleep deprivation. I don’t know. I don’t even care all that much, but I have to get the fingers moving and the mind working or I will achieve nothing today and that is not the way I want to start the new month. Last month I had my best “writing” month ever. I far exceeded my word count goal. I hit a milestone with my Alone series, breaking the 50,000 word mark. I wrote a piece of short fiction that I think might be worth publishing if I can ever get through the editing process. It was a huge month. The trade off of course is that my readership has declined to its lowest point since January. I don’t really mind since my productivity has been so high, but it does put a hitch in my dreams of fame.
So how do I break through this funk I’m in? Do I slog through one of my main WIP’s or do I kick off that new short piece that’s been rattling around in my brain? I don’t know. I think I’ll just ramble a bit…throw some random thoughts down on the screen and see if any of them stick.
Yesterday I got to spend some time walking around uptown Charlotte, North Carolina. Now the walks were brief since I was mostly hiking a half dozen blocks between my car and where my job site was, but you know I really enjoyed it. I wish I could live in uptown. There is just something cool about being surrounded by enormous buildings and as far as uptowns or downtowns go, Charlotte’s is pretty nice. The problem with living in uptown is that it is not a super kid friendly sort of location and the schools are horrible in Mecklenburg County unless you can afford private school or you get lucky enough to get into one of the Charter Schools. So instead I stay in Mooresville, Race City USA. NASCAR is everywhere in my town, and though I am not a NASCAR fan, I have begun to pick up on some of the names and cars through osmosis.
I’m thinking about going to the movies this weekend so that I can see Transformers: Dark of the Moon, and you know what? I don’t really care who the female lead is. Seriously. If there were no human beings in the movie, just big badass robots, I would really be okay with it. I know there are some film snobs out there who decry the series for its lack of acting or poor writing, but I don’t go to Transformers for great acting. I go for the robots. I like Optimus Prime kicking ass and taking names. I like explosions and action and Ithat is why I go to that sort of movie. Good acting and writing is like whipcream on an already tasty desert.
I have been playing a lot of Megamek lately. If you don’t know what Megamek is, it is a free online version of the tabletop strategy game called Battletech. Don’t know what Battletech is? Well look it up. Let’s just say it involves giant robots (sensing a theme here?). Megamek does a pretty great job of bringing the game to the computer and speeds up the playing process considerably since you don’t have to worry about rolling dice or marking little hashes on a piece of paper. I usually just play against the REALLY limited artificial intelligence of the game since I don’t often have enough time to sit down and play with another person. The game is my only real form of relaxation as of late and I am eternally grateful to all of the people who make it happen.
I think I’m done rambling for the moment. I need some caffeine in a really bad way. Thanks for reading. Come back later for more…less ramble…more substance…at least that is the plan.
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hang in there, dear friend, you will make it. i have faith in you!
Thank you Marantha. I appreciate the words of encouragement.
Take a break Eric, you’re over thinking it. You’ve been writing so much lately you’re burning out a little. Slow down for a day or two and you’ll be right as rain. Go on a long hike with the family this weekend. See Transformers. Just relax.
PS. Great! Now there’s another game I have to check out! 8)
Its a slow paced strategy game, but hella fun. Let me know when you’re ready to give it a look and maybe we can hook up for a quick game.
As for taking a break…I don’t know if I even can. Should maybe, but can? Too much of a break might throw me off, especially since I feel like the writing I’m doing right now is so solid. I may need to back it off a little though…just a little.